You are free to do what you please if you abide by these rules:
1. Give me money I don’t really need to pay off a loan.
2. Only talk to me during specific times, I can’t be bothered by your nonsense unless it involves money.
3. No talking or looking at the opposite sex unless it involves work.
4. The opposite sex can’t talk or look at you because I will kick his ass.
5. If you cheat on me, I’ll either end it or get even.
6. You have to pay attention to me when I want it or I’ll get mad.
7. Don’t bother me with what goes on in your life.
8. Don’t talk about emotions.
9. Follow these rules or I’ll threaten divorce.
10. If you want a divorce, find a place to live and I’ll send the papers.
give a fuck
If I write a poem for my boyfriend
it’d be a simple “I love you” note
on a plate of brownies
’cause I know my man
he don’t want no poem
and won’t read it
Why my writing
I spit it out
The love of my life
with coconut milk
Drive by agent
drives by my house
to see if I’m there
passes by me
on my way to town
makes it look like
he’s doing his job
not stalking me
but he is
he wouldn’t say a word
to me, hasn’t in years
he watches and follows me
when I drive
What I learned from 90s shows
It’s okay to kiss other people if you’re in a relationship, you’re going to marry your boyfriend/girlfriend anyway. -Boy meets world. Television sucks, it gives you dreams and situations that will never happen.
Signs your girlfriend hates you
she ignores you
your nickname is asshole, douchebag, jackass, moron, dumbass, etc
she texts other guys
she is sleeping with other guys or thinking about it
you get pity and drunk sex
He looks at me
like I haven’t
seen you in forever
you look good
I want to bang you
you want to bang me?
I just keep walking
why don’t you want me?
is it because I blocked and unblocked you?
you were cheating on me
you thought I was doing something
is it because I sucked in bed?
you liked it
Yeah, I wanted you
but it never would have gotten anywhere
I didn’t love you like I loved him
You could have
Some things aren’t meant to be
I know but why do I still want you?
tell me, do you still want me too?
Sexually, we’ve always had a strong attraction
but I cannot
it’s playing with fire
I never met someone as big as a douchebag as you. You live in a yellow cardboard box shaped house in the middle of nowhere. You go to the bar alone or with co-workers to join the rest of the townies in your area. When we first met you lied about your age. I thought you were four years older than me but you were actually eight. I figured that out when I saw your drivers license on your dresser. You said you lied your age when you were younger to get land and other benefits. You got older and lied so you can get dates with younger women because you had no intention to settle down. Of course, you lied and say you did. You broke up with me a couple of times because you wanted a ‘housewife’ and it wasn’t me. The entire time you were fucking other people and on other dating websites. You used that as excuse to go about your business. I returned the favor and joined other websites. I downgraded you as a fuck buddy as well. I found someone else and forgot about you. Or so, I thought. I miss the fun we had together, no one else was a big douchebag as you. You broke up with me the last time because I spilled your beer and didn’t clean it up. If you’re in the area and happen to see me walking on the street, don’t pull over and ask me what’s up or if I want to see you later like you have once. I mean, I said I loved someone else. Why would it be any different?
I have too many issues and I can’t commit my life away to someone.
No one was asking you too. You’re at the point you settle down.
Like what? Get married and have kids?
Yes. Isn’t that what you want?
No. The idea of marriage and kids repulse me.
Why? Love is a beautiful thing.
It’s disgusting, confusing, and scary.
It can create wonderful things.
So can Mother Nature.
You love him?
Yes but I can’t commit to him.
You can if you want too, you choose not too.
It’s not that simple. You need to be physically, emotionally, and mentally in place for that to happen. I lack the assets, am bored and indifferent, and know that’s because I am who I am and can’t change.
You could if you wanted too.
No. I don’t think you understand. You don’t know me, he doesn’t know me. When I get bored and feel nothing, I tend to wander off. When I wander off I explore and find something I like. I take it, know the consequences of it and don’t care — life is too short. I would hate to miss out on something because one douchebag held me back from living my life.
What if you loved the douchebag and he did it for your own good?
He doesn’t have the capacity to think about what’s good for me, only what’s good for him. I have the capacity but don’t use it on him.
You’re intentionally bad?
I just know what I want, want what I want, and don’t care.
Are you a cheat?
Once a cheat, always a cheat. Be my friend by all means, nothing more. We can hookup but we can’t date. It doesn’t matter how good you are in bed, how hot you are, what you do, if you’re funny, etc. It matters how fast you run.
When did this start?
A few Decembers ago, I “travelled” to a cardboard box shaped house I have known.
You loved him?
No, we had a lot of fun though. He cheated on me. I found him on numerous dating websites.
Leads to a magical world the protagonist(s) only know about.
In real life
You would think clothes, shoes, and junk back there. You’d be surprised how many people have sex, hide someone back there, and do a number of things we don’t want to know about. I wonder why we try to teach the children it leads to a magical world…
No one can physically see you so you can do whatever you want.
In real life
You may feel invisible but people can see you, especially if you make an ass out of yourself. You can ‘disappear’ by removing yourself from unpleasant people, things, or situations.
It can fly, don’t need a car.
In real life
If I sat on a carpet and waited for it to fly, people would ask what is wrong with me. Out of all the things I could fly if magic was real, why a carpet? The only thing magical about is it captures water and crumbs I have to vacuum later.
Say something right, and you get it?
In real life
I wrote a bunch of poetry, why don’t I have anything I wrote about in it? Words aren’t enough. You have to make it happen.
Does it exist? Maybe, maybe not. They only allow you to do so much. This is sort of a test for me to figure it out. I’ll try to fill it out to the best of my knowledge.
Describe who you are
(101 characters or less)
I’m a 9th house Scorpio with an Aquarius moon and rising in the 1st house. You’ll never get me.
Studied Creative Writing at State University of New York at * in 2015.
Past: Humanities concentration: Liberal Arts and Humanities at * Community College in 2013.
* High school in 2008.
Kicked out of/resigned out of
Liberal Arts at * Community College in 2010.
Social Science concentration: Liberal Arts and Humanities at * Community College in 2009.
Psychology concentration: Liberal Arts at * Community College in 2009.
___ (Too ashamed of the town to mention it.)
November, 7 1989
Contact and Basic info
Interested In: Women and Men (But no one really…)
Languages: English, know some French and Russian.
Religious views: New Age
Political party: Whatever
Description: I’m registered as a “Green” member but somedays I’m more Independent. I was previously declared “Independent”.
Family and Relationships
In a relationship but it’s hidden and says I’m single? Don’t ask me why, it’s his fault for being an asshole and not accepting my relationship request.
You want me to list all my family members on Facebook? WHY? So you can stalk them, judge me, or judge them? I’m good. (Potentially single now for real, think I just dumped him?)
P.S. Now you figured out why I don’t say anything on Facebook anymore.